|{ Coping }|

This post is a little overdue but I've been putting off writing it.

At my doctor appointment on October 30th we found out that we had lost the baby.  They don't know how long it had been gone but when they did the ultrasound the didn't find anything.  I was somewhere between 6 and 10 weeks when we lost it.

My doctor said that I am perfectly healthy and it was nothing that I did.  Miscarriage is very common but that doesn't make it suck any less. We were heartbroken.  Everyone around us has been SO AMAZING!! It's so great to have such amazing friends and family and they have really helped us to get through this unexpected hardship.

We both feel ready to jump back on the horse and start trying again.  My doctor thinks the chances of it happening again is very slim.  My doctor has also been awesome by the way, I kind of love her! I feel like she actually cares about me and it's a great feeling.

It gets easier every day, but it still hits me hard every once a while.  We are definitely grateful that it happened as early as it did and Jonathan has been the most amazing of all.  His love and support has been absolutely incredible and I am so lucky to have such an amazing man at my side.

I had fallen in love with this song while I was pregnant and now every work just fits perfectly so I thought I would share (I swear this was written about a child and not a woman) :

"Haven't Met You Yet"- Michael Buble

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet