Bad Dreams

Do you ever have recurring dreams?

My most often recurring dream isn't actually exactly the same dream all the time.  It always happens when I am napping (versus sleeping at night) and it is usually when I know I have to wake up at a certain time.

In the dream I am asleep in my current napping place and I can't wake up.  Usually I struggle as hard as I can in the dream to wake up and end up being able to wake up a little and try to move around but my eyes are closed or mostly closed and I can't see and I can barely walk and I can't wake up entirely no matter how hard I try.

Today I had this dream only I realized I was dreaming and struggled to wake up and when I thought I did I found the same problem I couldn't really wake up and realized again it was a dream and tried to wake up.  Then I thought I did wake up again but still couldn't wake up.  Finally I really woke up and now I feel all bothered and weird.  All of this tends to happen within a very short amount of time.  I always wake up to find the time to have barely changed though it felt like ages.

I wonder sometimes if it really was just a dream or if I am internally struggling to wake up and I really can't.  I think it might be the latter because I always feel so unrested by the time I wake up.  My mind races with worry that one day I really won't be able to wake up.

Have you ever had dreams like that?

Lonely

The past week or so I have been feeling pretty down.  Husband is gone a lot at school and I work a lot.

Mostly though I have missing people.  Specific people as well as just people in general.  I usually don't see anyone other than my husband until Sunday at church.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the time that I do get to spend with my husband but I miss being able to see other people.

Being on facebook makes things easier as well as more difficult.  Easier because I get to keep in touch with everyone, and harder because I am jealous of all the things they do without me.

I miss my family! Recently they have gone to witches night out, to see Devil, to Desert Star, and to a Quidditch match and while I am so glad they are having such a great time together it does leave a little ache in my heart that I cannot be there to share it with them.

I miss Rochele SO MUCH!! I think about her everyday and how much fun we used to have and all the things we used to do together, no matter how small those things were.  And since she had her son it breaks my heart to hear of all the people that have been able to see him and I haven't and every day I wonder what she is doing and how it must feel for her to have Connor there finally.  I am so thrilled for her!

I miss Erick and Kira, who we haven't seen in ages!! I miss how much fun we would have when we got together!

I miss all my lovely Utah friends who are just living there lives and playing with each other.

I miss all my summer friends who are out there being awesome and beautiful!

I just miss having people around.  That's all. Love you all!! :)

What's In Your Bag?

I've seen this done on a few other blogs and I thought it looked fun as well as it's a good way to get to know your fellow bloggers a bit better.

So what's in your bag, purse, diaper bag?

Here's mine!

1- Off white leather purse.

2- Ice Cubes gum + half a piece of Big Red (I rarely eat a whole piece of gum at one time)

3-  Birth control (the bane of my existence)

4-  Mini note pads where I keep information like future baby names we think of and ideas on gifts for Jon

5.  Pictures of my gorgeous little sisters

6-  Black snap wallet from Italy.

7-  All my cards:  Safeway, Debit card, Panera, Credit card, Godiva, Insurance Card.

8-  Business cards from Piranha sushi and Bare Minerals.

9-  Temple recommend and drivers license (which is soon to be renewed to a MI one!)

10-  List of fun and cheap date ideas

11-  Flipper

12-  Cell phone

13- Taser (Yes, you heard me right)

14-  Love note from Husband

15-  Keychain hold keys, kroger card, and mini flash drive (I admit, it has nothing on it, but I keep it on me because it makes me feel like a spy, true story)

16-  Hand sanitizer

17- Pen, always need to have one handy!

18-  Bronze/Isabella Buxom lip gloss (If you haven't tried Buxom you need to! I love it!)

19-  Medicated chapstick (I would die without it)

20-  Midnight Red Maybelline Lipstick

21-  Fingernail clippers

22-  Panasonic Lumix digital camera (You never know when you would have wished you had a camera with you!)

23-  Never ending shopping list.  I have had this same piece of paper on me for months now.  I just add to it and reuse it over and over!

24-  Envelopes for our new budget program! 

So Ladies? What's in your bag?!

Connor Judd Fillmore

Here is an even better video!!

My best friend Rochele had her baby on October 18th!  He weighed 8lbs, 3 oz and was 21 inches long!

I am heartbroken that I don't know when I'll finally get to see him in person but we are hoping to get on Skype soon so we can at least see him!

Her husband Kevin, just posted this on Facebook and YouTube and I think it is the most precious video I have ever seen! I definitely cried during the whole thing!  Thanks so much Kevin! (Hope you don't mind me sharing your awesome work!)  *** And don't worry, nothing scary in the video! :)

All Is Love

I found this great blog yesterday called Gwen in Love.  It's definitely a good one! The new button I just put up (see below to the left) is from her site.  Her blog is "An old fashioned girl's guide to love, marriage, and rockin' hot sex."  I really like it and she posted this video on her blog that I just had to share.  I think is SO cute and how much fun would it be to do this with your honey?


All is Love from Gwen In Love on Vimeo.


Isn't it the cutest ever?!

MIA

So I know I have been missing in action for a while now and I apologize!!  I haven't forgotten about you, I just have been really busy with work as well as lazy getting up in the morning so I don't really have the time!!

I am super excited because my super amazing gorgeous friend Rochele is having her baby soon!! If she doesn't pop earlier she will be induced on Thursday!! I am so excited for her, her husband Kevin, and their soon to be new baby boy Connor!! I can't wait to see pictures of him.  I am super disappointed that I live so far away right now because I have no idea when I'll be able to see him in person, but he is sure going to be a lucky baby with parents like them!

Also, Jon asked me to go to the medical school Fall Ball with him!! It's on Friday and I am SUPER EXCITED!! He sent me on a treasure hunt in order to ask me, it was a lot of fun!! We went out and bought me a new dress and jewelry and sexy shoes!!! And he got new stuff too!! It's going to be a blast!!

I'll keep you updated on all the fun stuff, I hope you are all doing amazing!!

Link to look at my shoes!! http://www.aldoshoes.com/us/women/shoes/peep-toe-pumps/81642493-vanis/98

MHRF

This week I just feel like bragging about my man!! He is so amazing!! I wonder everyday how I got lucky enough to have him!

Some of the many MANY things I love about him are:
He loves to cook and is VERY good at it!
He helps around the house.
He takes care of the finances, but wants me to be involved as well.
He puts me before everything else!
He is always encouraging me!
He is AMAZING at giving gifts and planning holidays!
He always makes me laugh!
He loves to mow the lawn!
He knows me so well!!
He is a great handyman and when he can't figure something out he isn't too proud to ask for help.
He loves road trips and driving!
He is so perfect for me!!

I couldn't have asked for a better companion! He is my everything!

A few weeks ago we went to the cider mills! We got fresh apple cider, donuts, and then picked some apples and raspberries!! It was so much fun and we took tons of pictures!! I finally got around to editing them so here you go!